Since my post in June (which I don't know whether or not THAT post made sense, or whether I was again trying to cram too many things into too few words
) things have continued to gradually get a bit better for me.
Still not too great though in some ways (but presumably I'll "get there" eventually).
A lot of it of course is supposedly within my control in one way or another..... but as perhaps most of you will know, having - seemingly - the power to change things doesn't always result in these changes being made, nor does it render depression invalid!
As always, I've kept plugging on with trying to get on with life.
I try not to be hard on myself.... not an easy task in itself.
Over the years, I've been developing the habit of remembering to breath deeply, which can only be a good thing (and as a Yoga devotee, there's also silently "saying" my mantra.) In the last couple of weeks, I have started to try to practise what people describe as being "present".
Trying to get down to "bare basics" in regard to motivation, keeping things extra simple, very small steps.
Have come to realise all the more so, how much I need cycling at the moment (especially as it's my only form of vigorous exercise, since with lymphoedema it probably wouldn't be good to run much).
In *most* situations (although not all), I seem to be continuing to get better with people. [Yes, I'm saying this, no matter who might read it or how much it might be disagreed with.... that doesn't matter.]
New career-related steps are gradually falling into place (some of which I have referred to in another thread).